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When I brought home Oliver 10 years ago I was living alone in Toronto. I had a beautiful corner apartment on Eglinton Avenue with lovely old hardwood floors and black and white tiled bathroom. I had just broken up with my live-in boyfriend and was on my own. It wasn’t my first time living on my own in the city, but it was the first time I felt like I was really doing it on my own. I’m pretty proud of that time of my life.

Oliver very quickly became the absolute love of my life. How can you not fall in love with a little pug-baby? That squishy face is only topped by his hilarious personality. That dog went everywhere with me.

Oliver and I have been through so much together. We’ve been through really hard times… Really, really shitty things. We’ve also done really fun things. Road trips, hikes, camping trips (not his favourite), Christmas dinners, my wedding… He has just been the best companion.

Over the last year Oliver has really started to show his age. It breaks my heart to even consider the fact that one day I’m going to wake up and he’s not going to be there to greet me with a snort and a sneeze. That’s the worst part about dogs. You know that one day they won’t be able to be with you any more.

I now have to carry him up and down stairs, carry him outside to go pee, and follow him around the house looking for accidents since the poor guy can’t seem to control his hind end anymore. I don’t mind the extra work, but I hate to see his body failing. It breaks my heart.

Isabel turned 3 in October. I can’t believe she’ll be starting school in the fall. This is about the time most parents start thinking about adding a second child to their family. We think about it. I think about it a lot. The truth is, it took a long time for Isabel to come into this world, and although I wouldn’t say we’re “trying” (more like, “trying to not care about trying”) I’m skeptical that a second babe is in our future…

Kids aren’t something I thought I’d ever have. I always pictured myself independent, on my own, more of the “cool aunt” type. But Isabel is my life and I’m so glad I decided to give parenthood a try.  A second baby would be warmly welcomed but I’m also 100% happy with how life is now. More so, I feel concern for Isabel. Any parent, or prospective parent knows, the pressure you feel from the world, from unwanted advice, always makes you question your abilities and choices. I always hear, “You can’t only have one!” and “I know an only-child and she has so many issues!” (Full disclosure: the only-children I know are all wildly successful individuals who I really admire. My best friend growing up, my cousin who is like my sister, a friend of my husband who is a wicked mom and runs an art gallery…) Although I’m happy with Isabel, who is my life and my world, I worry that she’ll be missing out on having a sibling.

This leads me to Leah.

I had been wanting a puppy for a while and am always researching breeds and checking out shelters, but I was concerned about how a puppy would get on with Oliver, who has mobility issues and is generally a grump around other dogs.  But when we saw some Boston Terrier/Pug mix puppies come up locally we decided to jump at the opportunity.

Sure, a puppy isn’t a substitute for a sibling, but I know from experience that dogs are the best companion anyone could ask for. And I know that Olivers time is coming… maybe not for a while, but it’s on the horizon, and I’m not sure how I’d get out of bed if not for a little wet nose nudging me out for a walk.

So here she is! Little Leah. Isabel named her. She’s pretty sweet… 3/4 boston and 1/4 pug. She’s a lazy little thing who has quick bursts of energy. She’s funny, incredibly snuggly and loves to be carried. I’m looking forward to the bitey-puppy stage to come to an end, but I’m enjoying the puppy snuggles. Oliver is doing pretty good, although Leah really wishes he would play with her. I often catch them snuggling together during nap time. She’s a smart little thing and already knows how to “sit” though potty training is going a little slow… We start some training classes soon.

The puppy has made things a little extra busy around here but I’m fortunate enough to be home all day with her most days. She has settled in really well to our little family. I’m looking forward to spring and teaching her to run with me.

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    February 8, 2018 at 12:59 pm

    I am so relating to almost all of this! We don’t have kids yet and I am pretty sure we will try to have one, but it’s life and I just don’t know how it will turn out. As for one child thing, I know a few people who were an only child and they are great humans. I think there positives and negatives to every situation and it’s not necessarily that one is better than the other. It’s how we make it work.
    I also have an older dog who was a part of my life for over 10 years now. She is starting to show her age too and it breaks my heart to think it will be her time to go one day. She also was with me through so much, and she helped me through some of the toughest times I’ve had so far. The night before my wedding I didn’t want to spend my time with anyone else but my faithful and loving pup. I can’t even think what would happen to me when it is her time. But I do know that her life has been great and she is so loved!
    We also got a puppy a year and a half ago! Partially for the reason that I can’t bring myself to think how I would live without a wagging tale and a wet nose, and I know it will not be able to get a dog right after my dog passes. I am so excited for your daughter to develop that connection with a dog! It’s such a great experience.

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    February 8, 2018 at 1:43 pm

    I’m glad to know I’m not alone in my reasoning for a second pup! It’s always hard at first adjusting to a new dog in the house, but so worth it.

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    February 9, 2018 at 5:45 am

    I suppose there are benefits to having just one child, however without wanting to put a spoiler on things, that child becomes an adult who is responsible for both parents in old age – this can be stressful as there is no-one else to share their experiences…just sayin’.

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      February 9, 2018 at 7:29 am

      Yes, this is what people tell me. However, having a sibling doesn’t always make it easier. And this I do know from experience! Sibling relationships can be contentious and nearly non-existant which can add a whole ‘nother layer of terribleness to ailing parents.

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    February 10, 2018 at 4:16 pm

    I just wanted to to say that so much of this post resonated for me! I moved to Toronto in 2016, I have a nice little apartment on Bathurst with wooden floors and a fireplace… and my little black pug! I moved after an 11-year relationship ended, and at that time had only had Conan for a few months. He’s been the best companion in the world to help me put my life together after everything completely changed. He’s 3 and I get emotional already, thinking about him getting old! He’s the absolute best.
    And, I’m an only child and I think I turned out pretty ok! 🙂 People always asked if I wished I had a sibling, and I never did. Then I’d have had to share my toys! 😉

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      February 11, 2018 at 6:32 am

      I was at Bathurst and Eglinton! 🙂
      Thank you for your comment. When I think of my daughters personality, I’m not sure how much she’d like sharing our attention with a sibling!

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