! I’ve thoroughly been able to enjoy my messy little kitchen lastley, baking bread and slow-cooking everything! I’ve browsed vintage sewing patterns, and hummed and hawed over fabrics… It rained most of the afternoon.
! I’ve thoroughly been able to enjoy my messy little kitchen lastley, baking bread and slow-cooking everything! I’ve browsed vintage sewing patterns, and hummed and hawed over fabrics… It rained most of the afternoon.
s perfect, my day was perfect, everything was pretty perfect. Dan and I just got back from Camping and a wedding at the place of my initial failure in life… Trent University!
It was nice to go back and re-visit it, though I felt strange walking around there, I hardly remembered it at all.
I moved, then moved again, and am now in a beautiful apartment, surrounded by parking lot, with Dan and Oliver, happy as can be.
And I’ve been sewing… and today, dying fabric. And, shopping for a new computer. And, while bored at my new job, working on the business side of Ohhh Lulu Studio’s and zombie screen play. I’ve been busy.
I have a love affair with Linen.

I think I have officially become an adult now. I am going to see a financial planner with Dan on Wednesday. I wonder what he’ll say when he finds out we have no money?
I hate moving.
Today, I slept in, packed a box, am going to go to work, coming home at lunch to help my brother load up his van, back to work, come home, pack some more,
by
……my
……………..self!!!!!!
I am so anxious and tired and overall cranky, I could possibly injure someone today.
Also, it’s freezing and all of my warm clothes are in Orillia. FANTASTIC.
I found myself, surrounded by junk and boxes, crying on my bedroom floor.
My bedroom floor.
Packing has become very sad for me all of a sudden. I am excited to start something new but scared at the same time; worried maybe it won’t work out… worried I will miss it here. Scared I’m giving up my independence, my dreams… I feel a very slight tinge of failure in going back to Orillia, mostly a fear that other people will think I couldn’t cut it. Oh, I cut it, I cut it long enough.
I’ve been in this city for 6 years. At 26, going on 27, that is a long time.
I found boxes of old relics, clothes, Christmas Cards signed “Love, Aunt so and so…” So many memories here. I went through so many changes here. I grew here.
I have a feeling I’m going to have some rough nights coming up…
I am excited to try something new. I am excited to be in a nice new apartment, arrange my furniture, paint a room. I am excited for weekly grocery shops with my mom, and babysitting the kids. I am excited to cook Dan dinner, and have his quiet presence on the couch, I am excited to rest my head on his shoulder as I fall asleep each night. But I feel a small amount of mourning in my leaving, the kind of mourning you experience when a loved one passes away after a long, drawn out illness. Everyone is glad to see an end of the struggle, but it’s sad at the same time.
I think I’ve done enough for tonight… I will feel better when I am settled.